withxabandon (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} withxabandon) wrote,@ 2007-02-17 11:50:00 |
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I am STRESSED out..
It's because I let my hopes get all high and then I let myself get worked up... and agh.
I don't think I've had that same kind of good, solid, laying on your bed facedown and actually sobbing out loud cry since Angel died back in August. I have teared up and sniffled a little, but nothing like laying in bed, crying my eyes out.
Why was I crying you ask?
I have a stinking feeling I will never hear back from Cavalia.
I am worried I won't be able to buy my ticket to Wisconsin before the flight prices go up to $49580495824590285.
I am sure that Rachel Ray will come back HYPP N/H and I won't be able to buy her.
My father somehow convinced someone to land a $33k tractor in our yard this morning that he's convinced he will buy.
AIR CANADA won't reserve flights unless you pay for them in full IMMEDIATELY, and I can't get more money on my credit card until Monday. AND FURTHERMORE, if you buy them now, and something happens and you can't go on your flight or you want to change your mind, it is NON REFUNDABLE. So if, for example, I get a call to go to oh.. say.. BELGIUM in two weeks (not that I truly believe that will ever happen), I have to cancel my flights, and they charge someone else and get paid DOUBLE for that seat. How is THAT fair?
I hate, hate, HATE dealing with Air Canada but since they're the only air providor in the area, and usually the cheapest (I fail to see how it's "cheap", but I digress), I am pretty much obligated.
I feel so bad. I don't want to let ANYONE down, but I feel like I am grasping at straws here.
A lot of people worry because I have these huge crying fits for no apparant reason - but things snowball and I really honestly feel better after a good cry. I do feel better. Still stressed out but more.. empty.. like the tension has leaked out of me, which is good.
It's because I let my hopes get all high and then I let myself get worked up... and agh.
I don't think I've had that same kind of good, solid, laying on your bed facedown and actually sobbing out loud cry since Angel died back in August. I have teared up and sniffled a little, but nothing like laying in bed, crying my eyes out.
Why was I crying you ask?
I have a stinking feeling I will never hear back from Cavalia.
I am worried I won't be able to buy my ticket to Wisconsin before the flight prices go up to $49580495824590285.
I am sure that Rachel Ray will come back HYPP N/H and I won't be able to buy her.
My father somehow convinced someone to land a $33k tractor in our yard this morning that he's convinced he will buy.
AIR CANADA won't reserve flights unless you pay for them in full IMMEDIATELY, and I can't get more money on my credit card until Monday. AND FURTHERMORE, if you buy them now, and something happens and you can't go on your flight or you want to change your mind, it is NON REFUNDABLE. So if, for example, I get a call to go to oh.. say.. BELGIUM in two weeks (not that I truly believe that will ever happen), I have to cancel my flights, and they charge someone else and get paid DOUBLE for that seat. How is THAT fair?
I hate, hate, HATE dealing with Air Canada but since they're the only air providor in the area, and usually the cheapest (I fail to see how it's "cheap", but I digress), I am pretty much obligated.
I feel so bad. I don't want to let ANYONE down, but I feel like I am grasping at straws here.
A lot of people worry because I have these huge crying fits for no apparant reason - but things snowball and I really honestly feel better after a good cry. I do feel better. Still stressed out but more.. empty.. like the tension has leaked out of me, which is good.
